We all have reasons to stay where we are and continue to do what we always do, even if we aren’t happy. But how is this effecting you and those around you? I don’t spend a lot of time thinking about the past but I have been thinking about how sad I once was and how it came to be that I am now happy and living in the Dominican Republic.
It is so different than the sleepy little village in SW Ontario, Canada that I used to live in. How did this happen?
In January of 2005, I had a miscarriage and while I frantically tried to recover from this loss, it seemed like everyone around me was pregnant and reminding me of what I didn’t have. I was drowning. It was also during this time, that the long-time issues in my relationship surfaced. I struggled with a choice that I wasn’t ready to make.
It was also during this time, that I was my heaviest and least healthy. I regularly consumed large amounts of food and red wine. And speaking of consumption, my big 4 bedroom house was full of stuff! Athough I had “everything” materially that I could ever want, I was empty inside. I was desperately searching for answers, change and meaning.
I tell you all of this, because I want to emphasize that even when things seem grim there is always hope. And the way to get out of your “grim” situation is to realize that the search for meaning and answers is not an external search but rather an internal one.
So how did I get here? A few key things happened that launched me on this new path, some are personal but essentially, I refused to live my life in sadness for one day longer.
I made a commitment to myself to try to live in truth. My truth.
Wishing you the best today!
With love, Kelly
